I'm losing my mind.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JOqkazL05DM&feature=player_embedded

My good friend sent this to me, with a note that said "Come back to us"
I don't really know if she is trying to say something, or just share her music with me. I think she was commenting on my space out at dinner that night. I'm the quiet one in any group I am in. I'm used to it, but I think it throws others for a loop. They don't know how to handle my seemingly random deep conversations with the napkin that I stare at endlessly. I think it worries some. A few people as what I think about. I just tell them they don't want to know, because that is a lot easier than listing all the things that pass in and out through my brain on a whim. Others take the approach of sliding it in to normal conversations and judging my response. Bravo to them, but it doesn't usually work.

I know I am not the only one who does this, so I don't understand why my friends are so throw for a loop by it. I'm just sitting, letting my mind wander where it wants. Usually I go back to memories and see where it takes me. Little things will set me off, like a little reminder of an old flame, or the way you push your hair back and how exactly like my mother you look when you do it. Other times I am just uncomfortable in this situation so I go somewhere else.

I don't know. Maybe I am losing my mind. That's okay with me, it's comfortable here.